Its been a long time...

First of all I want to say that the end of summer was wonderful. David came out and spent about ten days with my family and I in California. We did literally everything that I planned for us to do when he came (scroll down to see my intended schedule! haha). We literally did something like everyday. We got to go to the beach, went to six flags, and one of my favorite times was going to Yosemite National Park. I love spending time there with David, my Dad, and my sister Lyndsie. I felt like such a champion hiking thirteen miles in one day!! haha. I definitely felt awful after it but it really was great. But most of all I just loved David ad my family being able to interact. I love seeing the love of my life being so accepted by my family and being loved by them. it just means so much for your family to love who you intend on spending the rest of your life with, its amazing!

I really could go on and on, but I am just going to give a brief synopsis on the events leading from summer up to wear I am now.

The beginning of the semester was really hard for me. My first semester of nursing school, not having time for anyone really, David going to hang out with friends because he hadn't seen them all summer, and me feeling like I didn't have any friends. I just felt very left out for awhile, and it was a struggle to stay positive. But long story short I got through it and the rest of the semester thus far has gotten so much better and better than the first few weeks or so. This semester has definitely been a transition, for not only myself, but for mine and David's relationship, and for just anything else I can think of. David and I have grown so much together this semester and its encouraging seeing how we can work through everything together, no matter what the situation may be. I really love him so much and he has helped me through dealing with everything this semester, with school, and friends, and just everything. he has definitely been very supportive of me and has been doing a good job at being understanding. Of course there will always be times when its hard, but he tries all the time, and that is what counts.

So as far as school goes- first semester of nursing school.. so far so good. Wish my grades were a bit better but I passed my first clinical rotation so that was an achievement within itself! Now I am in the middle of my second clinical rotation, and it is going pretty good so far.. as far as I know anyway! I just really need to kick it into high gear these last several weeks and pull out in the end with better grades. I'm just looking at a lot of C's right now, and its just discouraging because I really do work so hard. I have never worked this hard on anything, ever!

Now, on the note of pledge week. I personally think it blows. I mean I am having fun and I love getting to know the new girls, but clubs are losing their unity. It is just so discouraging to see that the new girls don't even know eachothers names. We were yelled at if we didnt know all the girls' names in our pledge class by the second day! Its the last day and most of these girls don't even recognize eachothers names.. Its awful. It just sucks because there is no incentive to knowing eachothers names anymore. There needs to be some kind of intimidation. Being intimidated by the older members is what brought our pledge class together. I just hate that clubs are really beginning to lose their whole meaning..

Anyways.. its just pledge... "club week" this week and so that was on my mind. But on a lighter note- David and my 9months is coming up! :P haha, I really don't keep track that closely, but its just exciting and I have just absolutely loved the last nine months I have spent with him. I love him so much :)

Well, maybe I will write on this again sometime in the near future, but if not i will eventually. Over and Out! :)

It is wayyyyyyy late,
and I need to be in bed
I am waking up and leaving in the morning
and I will be in Russellville!!
I get to see David :)
Then I am off to Cali,
flying on a jetplane
and in two weeks he gets to come see me :D
and I am so excited!!
Moral of the story:
I love David :)
Thats it all!!

Goodnight everyone!!
Or I suppose its actually morning :P

~Lauren~

Packing is SO overrated!

I don't want to do it! Several times I have gone into my room and started straitening things up just to come walking back out ten or fifteen minutes later.. needless to say I havent really gotten anywhere. And it all needs to be done by tomorrow night! FML. I can do it though, most everything is still pretty much packed up and in the closet.. I will take care of it all though. And then I get to travel to Russellville!! (Yes, that is seriously the name of the town, ironic I know!) I will spend a couple days there with the most wonderful family and my literally fantastic boyfriend :D and then I will be hopping on a plane and headed off to Cal-i-forn-i-a!! I am excited to get back and see the family and friends, and of course I am even more excited for David to come out a week and a half or so later!! BUT- before I get there and do all that, packing still needs to come first.. gross. I would ask Bri for help but she has been in Nashville for the past few days and will not be getting here until tomorrow night. Maybe she can help me after work that night, I am sure I will be up late! haha. When I packed up my dorm room I honestly didnt start until like the night before and then the day of while David was already taking my things and packing them in my Jeep. my bad! I am gracious for his help though :) even though I know I frustrated him just a little, hehe. Oh well, he still loves me!

So! to further procrastinate lets list everything I have done to procrastinate today:
-Sold two books and got a little over twenty bucks for them! (more than I got them for!)
-got gas with my twenty dollars
-got sonic to celebrate being done with school!!
-watched Definitely Maybe
-watched The Proposal
-looked at more wedding things! :D
-looked at more traveling things!!

On the note of wedding things. After speaking with my Momma and just thinking about it: first, It is normal to begin to think about the future and begin to plan for what will be. And next no matter when I will get married I think its at least smarter to start thinking about things like that now and gathering ideas to take off a bit of the stress when the time for real planing sets in! All I am saying is that nursing school is going to stress me the h--- out! (I couldnt think of a better way to say it, so please, excuse my french). Anyways, its also just fun and a good way to spend my time (and procrastinate as well! haha).

Anyways, I havent done much else to procrastinate today but I am sure I will find more things, like cook a good meal, that will take up time! Wish I wasnt cooking for just one *sad face*

Oh well, time to head off of here and do something, whatever that may be! Maybe it will be saying just one more thing- Its going to be sad leaving though.. I really liked having my own house to live in, I am going to be so sad to go back into the dorms. Its not that I actually mind living in the dorm except that the rules get a bit annoying sometimes, but especially being a nursing major sometimes you really do need to take yourself out of the crazyness. Some people say that living off campus will make you feel left out and disconnected, where that may be the case to a certain extent I think it would honestly keep me more sane. When you live in the dorm people are always coming to you and asking to go place, etc etc etc.. I had a hard enough time juggling friends and classes last semester and I wasnt even in the nursing program yet. I have no idea how I am going to juggle nursing and everything else and be able to make time for it all. Time management is going to be a big struggle this year. And to be frank living off campus may be taking a lot of time away from friends, but they can honestly be very distracting at times. And I feel so bad for saying that because I love my friends, but Its just too hard sometimes to say no to them when they are begging you in your dorm room to come hang out. It just sucks. Ugh.. ok what a foul note to leave on but I should probably really be getting off here..

Ok, on a lighter note though, before I leave I have decided to let everyone now that David said one day we can get a German Shepherd, which is going to be fantastic!! But not only that he said we could get a Husky too!! :D I just want to raise puppies with him.. haha. and then a little further down the line maybe raising something else when the time is right and etc etc etc.. hehe. Ok, I just want to be a mommy one day :D Not many people know this but I watch Baby shows on TLC like 24/7 hahaha.. I get my knowledge on! haha, wow ok!! Time to go, for the third time! Third times a charm?? haha, ok, LATE!

:) Lauren :)

White Dresses and Vintage Visions.

So, It may be due to living with someone who is engaged and has started to wedding plan for her wedding next summer, or it may be because I have just found the most amazing man I could have ever imagined I'd find :)

(Yes Dad, I'm "giddy in love," haha.)

Either way I have been on a gathering wedding ideas kick for the last two days. This did not work so well in my favor yesterday as I was supposed to be studying for the final I had today. (which may have now have been suffered through for nothing- frustrated! More on that later though..) But for about a total of five hours I was either looking through wedding pictures and blogs and picking out things I like orrrrr planning this amazing and secret trip that I want to go on the summer right after I graduate (Which may be in December/January now..... let the frustration set in!) But I cannot talk about that trip on here, its a secret! Even though I have already asked David for a little input. But to his un-knowledge (?) I have had something like this in mind for a while :D I just wanted to know what he thought about a trip after we graduate. So hopefully after he reads this he will forget all about it! :D haha jk.. I have all of a sudden been thinking that I wont be able to do all of this alone like I thought I would.. ugh. Oh well. Just as long as he knows that I have been thinking about him and this idea since the middle of the school year :)

SO! Back to the wedding stuff! I was never that little girl who dreamed up her future perfect wedding or had her barbie and ken doll marry each other. (They just lived together- whoops!) I just never gave it any thought, like a lot of other little girls my age did. Even as I grew up it wasn't something I really thought about, I just knew I always wanted to be married and have a family, and be a mom. I never thought about the wedding aspect of it. For all I have ever cared, up until recently, I could have just gone and eloped or married in a courthouse and never give it a lick of thought. (Although my parents would KILL me!) I think weddings have just always intimidated me.. because I am a perfectionist when it comes to the things I create. I dont create much needless to say. But when I do I want it to go how I want it to go and I dont want anything being messed up! I basically just don't like messing things up or doing something wrong is what it comes down to. Ask David, even with us, I just want everything to be perfect.. which it cant always be. Maybe being with him and realizing that not everything can be perfect kind of eased the idea that a wedding isn't necessarily going to go perfectly either.

Another thing! When people talk about weddings they are always these huge expensive extravagant things! Not saying that mine wont be, but not in the ways that many weddings are. I promise you I will have the cheapest wedding I can have and it will still look amazing. I just really like the look of some of the vintage wedding ideas I have. I have gathered some pictures off line that give me a bit of inspiration for whenever I will begin planning that day. I want it to be at a beautiful venue, but the decorations will be vintage-y, and simple, and most of them will be DIY. I have seen a few different weddings some being people I know from Harding, others being rando people I find online but their DIY's and vintage-ish themes were gorgeous. I just think its classy, and simply just pretty!! haha. But when the words simple, beautiful, vintage, not-going-to-completely-blow-the-back-pockets-off-all-my-jeans=perfection (in my mind)!

Anyways, needless to say I spent hours yesterday and didnt study as much as I probably should have for my test- leading me to get a C... but I am so over these summer classes. Ugh.. I want to think about happy things instead! And now I am completely done with my classes for the summer! And to celebrate I looked around a little more at wedding stuff! Then passed out on the couch for like three and a half hours.. which reminds me- I'm hungry. I think I will head off here and make some food. And then maybe look at wedding stuff again :D Idk why, but it is just so much fun! I love it, and its such a nice break from studying all summer. This all is just making me so excited to get married one day, to the man of my dreams :)

-A girl in love.

19 more days!!

19 more days and David will be with my in California! I am so excited, and I just wanted to let everyone know! haha. It is just going to be so much fun. Here is a list of some things I want to do:

Go to the beach- duh. We may go to Venice and Muscle beach the day he gets in just for the heck of it, but I also just want to go to Zuma beach for sure, in Malibu. I just like it there :) BUT there is a slight possibility that we may go surfing and that will be done a little north of Ventura.

Go to Six Flags! I just always have wanted to go to a theme park with a boyfriend. I just think it would be fun :) We will probably go with like my brother and sister as well, but we will see! :) I just know that we both love roller-coasters and all of that and he hasn't ever been to a huge theme park before so I am excited to take him!

Go hiking! There is this place called the punch bowls that we go to a lot and I just like going hiking, so I think it will be fun :) And we can jump into the punch bowls when we get to them if we want! Hopefully it wont be too cold.

Go to Yosemite- I hope this works out!! My family talked about going but then there might be a bit of conflict so we will see how things go. I just want him to see how beautiful it is and get to go since he has never been. We may go hiking there as well!

Go to La/Hollywood- we are probably doing all that the day he gets in. I just like walking around those areas, its just fun and there is a lot to see. Sight seeing is always exciting, right?? haha.

Go to the fair!! Our county fair will be going on again and I just want to go to the fair with him, haha. Also there will be a lot of good performers there this year including: The Beach Boys, Lifehouse, Three Days Grace, REO speedwagon, Pat Benetar.. just to name a few! So we have a lot of options there :)

So those are the main things I have thought of, I almost wish he would stay longer! hehe. But I am leaving with him when he leaves so it wont be bad at all. It was just kind of annoying because I had thought we werent leaving until tuesday when in reality we are leaving monday.. lame! haha. But all in all I am just so excited to have him come out and get to hang out in Cali and have fun!! :) Ahhh, cannot wait! I just love him so much :)

Last Week in Searcy for a Bit..

First of all, this summer has gone by so quickly. Like I really cannot believe that it is almost over! Granted we have about a month of summer left, but still! This week is my FINAL week of school for the summer, needless to say I am STOKED. But it is a bit bittersweet. I am happy school will be done and I will finally be able to relax, but it also means that I have to leave.. Don't get me wrong I am excited to see my friends and family out in Cali but I am going to miss living with Bri so much. This summer has been truely fantastic with her! I couldn't have asked for a better housemate. (Unless it was a husband.... hehe). I have just had so much fun living with her and everything worked out so well. I am also going to be sad being able to live in my own house, and not in a dorm or my parents house. Love my family to death but I don't really miss living at home. I especially do not miss living in the dorm!!

BUT! Most importantly I am going to miss the man of my dreams. [If you hate reading sappy stuff, just spare yourself and leave this page now!] I have been so grateful to live near him this summer. It has allowed us to see each other and visit each other frequently, and that it more than most couples get to do during the summer away from school. I was extremely grateful for his family and his parents in particular. They were so gracious enough to let me live with them for two weeks at the beginning of summer before I was able to move into my house. That really meant so much to me, and it was so great getting to know them on such a personal level. I love his family so much, they really mean the world to me. They have made me feel so included and loved. They didn't have to open up their home to me but they did, and I really can't say thank you enough. I have also been able to visit David several times this summer. We usually alternate weekends when I will visit him then he will come visit me. He has come here to see me more I believe but I have spent a handful of weekends with him. I just really like being able to have that family atmosphere and have that time to spend with him. I love just relaxing and talking to David so much. We don't always do that a whole lot, most the time we are watching tv or playing video games or I am studying, etc, etc. But when we really do just get to sit down and just talk about whatever, I love it so much. That was one thing that I really loved about him when we first met and started dating. He is just so easy to talk to (most of the time! hehe) Like the first day we had ever hung out we literally talked for eight hours straight! About what?? I really don't know.. but it happened! I think it is important to still make time and do that. Everyone gets so busy in their day and when they relax they want to just veg out in front of the TV or computer etc, me included! But sometimes it really is just great to sit in silence and just be with that person. And thats really one of my favorite things to do with David, and I sometimes wish we did it more! :) I have just been so busy a lot of the time, which I really hate. Pretty much all of every weekend we have spent together I have to study for a large chunk of time. I wish I would have been able to just spend that time more with him, but it has never really happened. That has been the only downfall to living on my own but still having to take classes.. the work. And its mostly just busy work, and studying of course. I just wish It wouldnt have kept me from spending more time with him.

Ok so recap over some of the things David and I have done this summer:
-Went to riverfest and saw Mike Posner! and Nelly! I have always wanted to do that, to go to a concert with friends or especially a boyfriend. It was just so much fun, and I hope we get to do it many more times :)
-Gone swimming in his marvelous pool. And I have watched him do cool trick shots with a basketball hoop (with backboard) he made.. and get to see him do all these amazing flips that I could never do and am too scared to try (I can barely even gather the courage to dive off of the diving board, and I still dont do it correctly!) I have tried making a certain shot though, that mark my words I will make one day soon!
-Made food together. One time at his house we attempted to make brownies, and they didnt cook long enough.. idk what happened to them. Another time we made breakfest for lunch at my house and needless to say I burnt my finger then smoked up the whole entire house! (This was the day before I burnt the crap out of my hand!) I really showed him my cooking skills that weekend. I think he is scared to ever live with me and have me cook for him lol.
-Gone to the mall! Ok so I really liked shopping with him. It was fun to pick things out and I had fun trying things on and modeling for him! hehe. I also just liked being able to walk around in public with him, and be a cute little couple together! :) He is just really good at shopping though. I know if it were my brother he would want to get out of the store or at least go do his own thing while my sister and I or my mom shopped. But David was really good, even when it was a store that only I could shop in! And he would tell me if he liked things or not (except one time when I was trying to decide between a light grey and a dark gray cardigan and he didnt care either way... haha. Thankfully some random girl told me which one she liked better, lol) But I just had a really fun time with him!
Gone to the movies!! Later that night when we went to the mall we went and saw Bad Teacher, funny movie! We were kind of bummed that the theater turned out to be just as bad as searcy's but the funniness of the movie made up for it! This summer we have also seen Transformers 3 (AMAZING!!! Made me want to chant USA for the rest of the night!) We saw Horrible Bosses, which was funny as well. And then this weekend we went and saw the final Harry Potter!! Oh my word it was great, so sad it is finally over though.. But I like going and seeing movies with him. And we like similar kinds of movies so it works out great! I also like being a typical couple and doing the whole holding hands occasionally kind of thing. We arent into the kissing during the movie though, we actually like to watch it, hehe. Maybe one day we will have to just go to a crappy movie and be THAT couple.. haha.

Ok, and one thing we have done that really not all couple do and something that I have really enjoyed was going to church together. First of all, it just really means so much to me that I have found someone who shares my faith. Used to I never thought I would find someone who really does believe all the things that I do as well. We view many things so similarly. It works out really well. But I especially have liked going to his church with him. Its been nice to really go to a church and feel like I belong again. That may be partially because he has always gone there. But I am starting to meet people and make new friends and acquaintances. Its just really nice.. Its the closest I have come to feeling like having a home church again since I have left home, and I really enjoy that. I like going to class and service, and singing, and praying, and just doing everything with him. This is a bit outside of church, but I really love praying with him as well. Like when it is just the two of us.. thats something we really havent done for a while, at least not out loud with one another. I pray for the both of us very frequently, but mostly just to myself. David is just the first guy that has ever prayed out loud both with and for me. I have never had anyone do that for me. It is truly so amazing to pray with someone like that. We havent done it as often as we did in the school year, but that may also be because we see each other more then, Im not sure. But I think I just decided to make sure we do that at least once every weekend when we see eachother this summer. (Which there is only just a couple more weekends we will have like that before school starts!)

I am just curious to see how our relationship will change or differ when school starts. It has had a bit of a different vibe since we have been out of school. So I am just really interested to see what it will be like when school starts again and we see eachother every day and sit in chapel together! (Don't worry we wont be one of those couples! haha) And I believe I also enabled him today to make me work out every day during the school year, haha. Which I really need to, I really do honestly love to workout, and run and all of that but I just never make the time to. And I think I have come to a couple of conclusions: first, I have always needed someone to tell me what to do. I only ever worked out because of sports and going to practices. Since I have been on my own I dont really know what to do. I think I just really need someone to be like ok lets go and give me a bit of guidance. Which brings me to number two, I just dont know how to work out. I mean I know different things to do, but I dont know how to get my butt looking like it did two years ago or how to trim some tummy or side fat.. Idk how to do that! I think all in all me not knowing how to do all this keeps me from going to work out. Because I know running is not enough, but its mostly what I know how to do.. which is what I should have realized when have a conversation with David about this the other day.. Its not that I dont like doing it or dont care, but Idk what to do or how to get started.. I dont have the knowledge so therefore I just find something else to do instead and I dont make time to work out in any way.

So wow, I got carried away a bit there. But anyways: David, when you read this, I am appointing you as my new physical trainer! haha. (idk what I just got myself into, lol) But back to the school year. it will just be so much different because we will be back in dorms and not able to hang out like we have been able to this summer. But I still think It will be good. I have liked being able to learn how to live on my own.. getting myself ready for life after college and married life!!! Yes I said married.. hehe. Not sure when exactly that will happen, but I know who it is going to be with. I mean at least I think I do! I know who I want to marry, he jst has to say yes.... wait.. isn't that supposed to go the other way around.. He is supposed to ask me right? lol. Idk, David and I have already begun talking about all of our future possibilities together and it just gets me so excited. I really do want to spend the rest of my life with him. I have come to know him and love him so much and I have come to know his family and background.. Ahhh I just love him :) And for the most part I really do think we work so perfectly with each other. I am just so excited to see how the rest of school goes together and just our lives together in general. He is truly amazing in every way.

And for a final exciting memo: He will be at my house in California in three weeks!! Three weeks from tomorrow to be exact! I have been looking forward for this for so long! He has already been able to meet my Mom in person which was just wonderful and he has met everyone else through skype, but I am just so excited about him being able to stay with me in California for a little over a week, it is really going to be so great! :) I have already planned out a few things I was to get to do, and I am just so excited!! haha. I will be leaving to go home either this following weekend or sometime during the next week and just a week and a half to two weeks late he gets to join me!! I just know it will be fantastic :) Ahhhh!! haha, ok, I will calm down now. I just cannot believe it is almost here. I cant wait for him to get to meet my whole family in person and for them to just love him! :D

Ok, so I really would love to talk more but I just realized it is after ten and I have been writing this without stopping for like the past 45minutes, haha. Why isnt it this easy to write essays for school!? GEEZE! Maybe because I just love writing and talking about stuff that matters :) David, and life.. school stuff is dumb, haha. But I am almost done!! And then in a month Nursing School from hell hits me.. haha, jk. It will be great but I officially wont have a life anymore.. bleh. ok But I need to finish stuff for my nursing class that is due tomorrow, haha. Over and Out!

<3 Lauren :)

Life is good.

Ok so I figured out how to update my blog from my phone! Legit! David will be so happy :) ok so I know I have sucked keeping up with this thing but here is a quick recap!

My eyes got corneal infiltrates they were super sensitive to everything, my left one swelled up. Spent over a hundred dollars on the doctor/medicine, long story short it blows.. I am still recovering, and this started over two weeks ago. I have been wearing old glasses that I can't see out of since then.. And something is causing me to have blurred vision in my left eye... Last doctor appt is tomorrow.. Hopefully it's the last anyway!

Next subject matter.... I passed pathophysiology!!! With a c.. But oh well. It's been really tough taking these nursing classes this summer. A lot tougher than thought.. Which leads me to the fact that I have literally been unable to work for lack of time and thus I am literally completely broke with next months bills coming up in a few weeks.... Shoot me. Or just donate to my cause!!!

My other class has been going really well.. for the most part at least.. This week is gonna be a killer though.. Like seriously it's going to blow! Ugh... Three clinicals and two of them are back to back... That night with all that post and Orr clinical paperwork is going to kill me.. It's going to take forever and then I still have to get up and be at clinical by 630 in the morning.... Gross!!

But on the brighter side, I was able to spend the last TWO weekends with David :) :). Can I just say first that he makes me sooo happy. Last weekend we were able just to chill, and spend time together.. And one day we went to little rock and went shopping and to a movie, and idk It was just so much fun getting to do all that with him.. And to be able to show the world that we are together and happy, and that I love him so much. We also had a few interesting cooking experiences that weekend. Made breakfast for lunch together and I managed to smoke up the kitchen and burn my finger... The next day or the day after I was making fried chicken and got a nice burn on the top of my hand... Ouch!! David kissed my boo-boo's and made them feel better though :) I was sad we weren't able to go to his families for the fourth, but I had a lot of work to do and it would have also required me to drive there and back that day which there was no way I could really do that with my eyes being all screwed up :/ I just wish I hadn't had kept him from his family and that we could have had a better fourth of July and I would t have burned myself.. But what I care about most was just that I got to spend it with him.. No matter what we did we were together.

This weekend was so nice to get away.. I really needed to get out of this town and I just wanted to see David again as well. The drive really isn't too bad. But it's definitely worth the drive either way. He took me to see both, transformers 3 and horrible bosses. They were both really good! But transformers was so seriously legit in every way.. I told David during the movie at one point that it made me just want to chant USA.. haha. If you havent seen it yet, go do so!! Other than that we got to relax and go swimming!! Saturday Davids family had a yard sale so I helped a teeny tiny itty bitty bit with that.. Ha. I kinda felt bad for not really being involved :/ but their sale went good and they are having another one in september! Swimming was a lot of fun even though my burn on my hand busted open.. But it is healing quite nicely (it was a pretty good second degree burn!) I really like watching David do all his legit flips though.. I wish I could do then but I'm a bit scared to try haha.. But I got a tan!! David tried to say he is darker than me, but really I am darker, or at least catching back up now.. Haha. I finally agreed with him that we are just different colors :P

Do anyways everything had been going really good. And I really enjoyed my weekend, and I really don't want to get up in the morning at 530 and I also really just want to be with David again instead... I really do love that boy, with all of my heart. He makes me so incredibly happy. And in just a few weeks he will be going out to Cali with me!!! I cannot wait!!! :D

But I need to get off here and get some sleep.. Goodnight everyone!

What a stressful week!

Where to even begin. The week started out pretty good! Sunday Bri and I went shopping, so that is always a good way to feel good, (until looking at the receipts afterward!) We did a bit of damage but I didnt feel too bad about it since I had a ton of more money in my account!

Anyways, I was trying my hardest to get adequate sleep and I had most of my homework done before the week had even started. Monday I started out with class from 8am-3pm. The usual. I then stayed after and went to the library and worked on homework until the nursing lab opened up at 4pm. I stayed in there until almost 6pm, then headed home to finish up my take home test and study for the last validation I had the next day!

So Tuesday rolls around and I passed my validation with no problem, Then I had class, but for once didnt have to go to the lab afterwards since validations were over! So then I went home, relaxed for awhile and started studying for the test I had the next day in my Pathophysiolgy class.


Ok, I know I havent gotten this far yet but I cant see really well due to something else that happened.. and my eyes are being really weird so i need to get off here. Finish this soon!!

David comes tonight, so excited to see him!!! :)

GIRLS WEEKEND!

This is going to be rather short, but I just thought I'd sneak a tidbit of what I've been up to on this here blog. (This here blog?) Anyways, Yesterday really kicked off the girls weekend. Friday night I studied and Bri was at work, and after a long, tiring week I was passed out by 11pm. How lame, right? Anyways, saturday I woke up and took care of some school things while Bri worked. BUT! When she got home after work at 5 we were soon off to Best Buy to pick up my computer (that I am typing on now!) And then to the mall thats close by to do a little shopping! I figured I needed a few things, and I wanted to treat myself just a bit for all of my hard work so thats what we went to do. Bri also wanted to go shopping to start looking for outfits for her engagement pictures! (She is getting married next summer!!) We didnt realize how late it already was and since the Mall closes at nine we only had about an hour and a half to shop once we got there. Needless to say we spent our whole time in Victoria's Secret, haha. We got measured and tried on a lot of stuff (obviously). We finally found something we liked (oh and don't worry it was all on sale!) but then there wasnt much time to shop for anything else, so we went down to the food court, bought a quick bite to eat, and a drink and headed back home.

Once we got home was where the real party started though! We just turned the music up really loud and had a dance party! We tired out after like six songs, (hahaha) so then we retreated to the living room, sat on the couch and just read girly magazines. It was fun though! It was a good get-ready-for-bed activity. So we went our separate ways and fell asleep.

Now we have both woken up. The love of her life has moved on to Georgia for the rest of the summer, so they said their goodbyes this morning. So once I was up I headed over to her room, and here is where we have been for the past hour. We've been looking at peoples wedding pictures, and engagement pictures, and all of the above! (I love looking at all of these pictures, it just gets me so excited for when my day will come!! And I believe I have already found the perfect candidate to share that with!) Now she just left to shower and get ready, then its my turn, and then we are going back to shop for everything else we wanted! (Ok, realistically, it wont be everything else I wanted.. or I'd be spending thousands of dollars..) Welp, I should probably start doing something to get ready, so I will have another update soon!

Ciao!

So much for keeping up with this..

I really really really meant to keep up with this! After my last blog I travled off to Georgia for my Grandparents 50th wedding anniversary! I also went to see my family, who flew out from California, to surprise my grandparents. [SURPRISE!!] It was a lot of fun, and I loved getting to spend that time with my family. It had been about a year since I had seen everyone last so it was really great getting to catch up! I also got to see my cousin Jessica. Why this makes me so excited is because she is pregnant!! :) She has the cutest baby bumb! Only 9 more weeks to go I think! Crazy how time flies. Last time I saw her she wasn't pregnant at all, it was so crazy actually seeing her like that in person. I am so excited to see little baby Gabriella in just a couple more months. It just makes me want one so bad!! haha. I know I know, don't get ahead of myself. I'm not, I promise! Growing up is just so crazy though.. Like having an adult life is becoming such a reality now!

After spending a wonderful few days with my family (oh and I do want to mention that I was able to skype David in and he got to meet my family!! It was so great! Everyone really liked him! Just cant wait until he can meet everyone in person!!) So anyways, where was I? haha. My mom decided to help me make the drive back to Arkansas so she could meet David in person! And also because I had school the next day and also because she could spend more time with me that way! It was a good drive back after we FINALLY got out of Fayetteville (She wouldn't listen to the GPS so we had to stop by my grandma's so she could look at a map... etc etc. haha). We eventually drove into Searcy right at dinner time, just in time to meet David at an Italian restaurant in town. I was so excited to see him! and so excited that he was officially getting to meet my mom :) Dinner was good, and David paid (what a gentlemen!) then it was back to my house (MY HOUSE!!) to relax and spend some time really getting to talk and for my mom to get to know him better. Needless to say, she really likes him :) Which makes me so happy!!

June 6th- First day of School.. gross. Six hours of class, and then it was home to take my mom to te airport. Although before going to the airport we dropped off my computer at Best Buy, three days before the warranty was up. This comes to the reason why I haven't blogged in so long. I have been computer-less for the past three weeks. So here is a quick recap!

*went to GA
*family suprised Grandparents for 50th Wedding Anniversary
*David got to skype a lot of my family/ got to meet my mom in person!
*School started
*school has been kicking my butt/ I have been doing good, but I have no life
*For the past few weeks I have gone to school at 8am, come home, studied till midnight, went to sleep, and done the same thing the next day..
*two weekends ago David came to visit! He surprised me with a PS2, and Jak & Daxter games!! It was a gift for our four months, and also just because we alays talk about the good ole days playing on the PS2! I am glad I got to see him and spend time with him while he was in town, it was a lot of fun :) (Even though that Saturday I sat on the couch all day and studied while he sat on the other couch and finished the ENTIRE game of Jak 1.. dang!)
*Last weekend, I went to visit David and his family!! :) I got to swim and actually feel like it was actually summer time. I had a really good time, and I liked getting to church and see new acquaintances I have made, and then we got to spend fathers days with his family :) (I also just want to say that I absolutely love his family, they make me feel so welcome! Its all just so perfect!)
*This past week has been my hardest, with three different tests, three assignments due in one of my classes, and two days of validations.. ahh!
*Its friday, friday, gotta get down on friday! My hard work finally paid off and today ended up turning out really great!

As of right now I am doing well in my Professional Nursing class, this class extends into July so I still have a lot of time to catch up on whatever I need to. My other class is only a four weeks class.. which means: ONLY ONE MORE WEEK OF CLASS!!! This class that is about to end is called Pathophysiology.. Its ridiculous. haha. Its really interesting, but its pretty tough, especially while taking another class. I have done pretty well in it. I currently have a C average with two more tests to go. I am planning on studying my butt off this weekend so I can get ahead.. If I get A's on my last two tests I think I will be able to bring it up to a B! (I might even be able to make just B's on my next two tests.. we will see!)

Ok there is so much more I want to talk about!! - David, Nursing, Living in my own place (with Bri of course!) and how I hate that bills are starting to come in and "real life" is starting t hit me! ahh.. But I need to get off of here and finish a few things up. I will be picking up my computer tomorrow so I will add some more updates that have happened over the last few weeks once I get my computer :)

Welp, I love everyone!! If anyone really reads this, I hope you are enjoying it! And I will start having more interesting blogs here soon! haha. God Bless!

I Love David Landon Robinson!!

I just thought everyone should know :)
He makes me so incredibly happy!

He makes me feel good about myself and he tells me I'm beautiful just because.  And often.  It will just be completely random sometimes.  Even when I don't feel like I look good, it makes me feel so much better about myself.  Have I mentioned that I haven't worn a lick of makeup in like a month or so!?  Not that I wore a whole lot before or wore it all that often but I normally put a little on every day, even if it was just a little foundation to even out my skin tone.  But I could really care less now, I think I look just as beautiful without it, if not more so!  I just like how he surprises me by telling me how cute I am or how attractive he finds me, even if I am just in sweatpants, hair tied, chillin with no makeup on :)

He makes me smile so much, and he makes me laugh.  The guy is hilarious.  And he just does these super cute things sometimes that just makes me smile for no reason!  Like little faces he makes, or things he says.  Or when he gets embarrassed: its so adorable. haha.  Which my saying that may make him feel embarrassed but it just makes me smile so big seeing his cheeks get all red and he smiles and tried to hide his face.  Ha, idk that may sound weird but I think its precious!  :D  I just cant stop smiling sometimes when I am talking to him or just thinking about him.. or walking down the halls of his house and looking at all of his baby pictures on the walls, or even pictures of him in high school.  He just makes me smile!

He also helps me out with whatever, whenever I need it.  Like moving for example, he loaded up my jeep for me when I was moving out of the dorm. He helped me with my validations for nursing, by helping me practice for class.  He also just helps me calm down and relax whenever I get super stressed out.  He also just helps me be an overall better person and a better Christian.  I had never had anyone just pray for me like he has.  Praying with David is one of the most amazing things.  Sometimes I wish we did it even more than we do.  I know we each pray for each other separately but I love when we pray in the midst of each other.

He accepts me for who I am.  Weather it be accepting me for how I look or act or for mistakes I have made in the past.  He accepts me for all the big and little things.  He honestly probably knows more about me than anyone else does, and he is still right by my side.  I don't know what more I could ask of him than just basically accepting me or who I am, and loving me for who I am.  So many people today get to know someone at a deeper level and begin to judge and turn away from them.  I just think thats the saddest thing!  Everyone has a past and makes mistakes and has faults, but that shouldn't give us reason to judge them.  God made us to love each other.. for our imperfections.  I guess I cannot speak for him, but I would love to think that David loves me for my imperfections, and I think he really does.

David also just takes care of me.  By doing all of the above and more.  He takes care of me in so many different ways.  By being a friend, by being a teammate, by being an outlet, by being a brother in Christ, by just being himself, and by being even more.

Being with him, getting to know him, growing closer to him over these past several months has really opened my eyes to so much.  It has also made me realize that real relationships take work.  We don't always agree on everything and by accident we upset each other, and we get bothered by the pasts we have.  But we communicate.  Lord knows that I have trouble communicating, I am not sure why it is so hard for me to just say how I feel, or to even form it into words, but it takes a lot longer for me to understand myself than it does for other people.  But communication is one of the most important things, if not the most important aspect in a relationship.  We talk about everything, and we resolve our issues. Sometimes we let problems go on for a little too long but we still finally get it out in the open and solve the issue.  Its not good to let things go unsaid and fester inside of you.  No matter how you think the other person will react you need to talk about what is bothering you.  and maybe I should take my own advice sometimes! haha.  I just have issues about not wanting to upset anyone, especially David.  

I just feel like we are really good together.  We can talk about anything, we listen to each other, and are there for each other.  We also put God first in our relationship, and God is present in our relationship.  I know we have many more things to learn but I think we have an amazingly good start to what I hope to be a never ending life together.

Ok, I have probably said too much, haha.  I haven't really been this completely open to just anyone, especially not online.  But I don't care what people think.  David and I may not have been together extremely long but I feel like when you know you just know, right!?  Ha, idk, but I just want the world to know how I feel, and how happy I am.  God has answered so many of my prayers by giving David to me.  He has blessed me in so many ways.  and I hope he continues to be a blessing in my life.

DLR <3 LER  ||  2-12-11  <3

Eight hours and twenty minutes later..

I am finally at my grandparents house in Georgia!  I finally was completely out of town by 1020, I got a little behind because I had a few errands to run before leaving town.  This was the first time I have ever driven this distance completely alone.  Sure I have driven this long before, but with other people in the car.  My lil baby jeep served me well today though.  I am proud of little Ollie!  haha.  (Its short for Olive, because Laneija thinks it looks like an olive).  Anyways, surprisingly the time went by really fast.  One hour that went by real fast was the hour I got to talk to David :)  He called me on his lunch break and we got to talk.  It was really good, I miss talking to him!  and I just miss him! haha.  Wish he could have been able to make the trip with me, but he will meet everyone eventually, I am sure of it!  It also may have helped that I drove in daylight the whole time; making the trip not seem so long because it didn't feel late.  Anyways, I just wanted to let everyone know that I made it safely :)

I wish there was something to do however.  Although I am pretty tired.  I am just finishing this up, and texting David while he is at the gym getting swole.. haha.  Its impressive to me how much he can do, and I wont lie, I like his muscles lol.  But I know he likes working out, and I am glad that he does it for him and not for anyone else.  I wish I had his determination sometimes.  I also wish I wasn't so lazy.. but thats a story for another day.  I think its off to the couch to relax and watch some tv!

Bienvenidos a Georgia!

I just got done unpacking! I don't want to pack again..

I am so tired. Granted I stayed up till all hours of the night rearranging my room and cleaning and what not. But hey, it looks so good! My room finally looks rather decent :) There are a few small things I need to get done and a bit more cleaning up to do, but you can actually see the floor now; It's great!

My next main project is to start looking through pictures I want to get printed off. I have been wanting to print off new pictures to hang up since the beginning of the semester but I just never got around to it. Until then I am going to stay picture-less, besides the few pictures of me and my family that I already had framed. My eyes are just too tired to sit and look through a billion pictures right now though.

My left eye has been really dry lately, I think I am getting a sty; something that I have never had before. The inner portion of top of my left eyelid is a bit swollen and it just feels weird, I don't like it, lol. Which reminds me, I should probably go get a wash cloth and run it under some warm water and place it over my eye. That is the only thing I really know of that I can do.

Today has been a pretty good day thus far. I woke up to Bri coming in my room to snuggle with me, haha. We just laid down and talked and rested before we finally decided to get out of bed to figure out something to eat. Although right before I got out I found out how to skype on my phone!! I had a lovely skype video conversation with none other than the most marvelous David Robinson :) He just makes me so incredibly happy! He was off work for lunch and we had been texting a bit but then he asked me to skype real quick before he had to leave just so he could see my beautiful face :) Which honestly wasnt that beautiful, in my opinion, haha: I had crazy bed hair, glasses on, and I was holding my phone at a weird angle I feel like haha. But if he thinks I looked beautiful then thats all that matters! At least he looked nice though, in his button down and tie. My man the bank teller :) He is so precious.

Speaking of work, I made my way after lunch to the school. Before I ran into Admissions I checked to see if anymore of my text books had come in the mail, and I had one more waiting on me! (only two more books to go now!) I picked that book up and then went and waited on Nathan (Boss man) to finish up with a meeting then we went over the plan for working this summer, made a few calls, and before I finished I collected some information for a package I had to mail out! I really like working for admissions. I like being able to do different things, and be on the go sometimes. I don't work extremely often and I don't work long hours so it fits in nicely with my schedule since I am taking classes. And it is nice to still get a little bit of an income. I know I wont make near as much money as last summer, but thats really alright, I don't mind much.

I didn't work long at all today, and I was planning on maybe working tomorrow but he said not to worry about it. So this means that I get to leave first thing when I wake up for Georgia! I am excited to go, but I am not so excited about the 9 hours drive there, that I have to make alone. I was really wishing that David would have been able to go with me. Would have made him drive a lot for me! haha. I also really wish he could have met all my family since he hasn't yet. Although meeting all of my Puerto Rican side of the family may have been a bit much for a first meeting, haha. I am just glad that he gets to come visit me later in the summer and meet my family :) One day he will meet the rest, I am sure.

So now I am just procrastinating.. I should really either take the time to go and make myself some food or pack. I am hungry though. I kind of miss having a meal prepared for me every night. I may have taken for granted staying at Davids house and being so well taken care of. he just texted me saying he just finished eating and I am jealous, lol. I miss staying with them, I love his family! But I guess I better head off of here and eat, and then pack..

Ohhh how I do not want to pack.

Home Alone.

Welp.  I woke up today pretty late.. go figure.  But its not like I had school or work, just trying to rest up before school starts next week!  I cannot believe I will be waking up at 8am every single morning for the next eight weeks.. ugh.  I loved waking up in my own home though.  I still have some "moving in" to do, I want to move things around in my room I think and we have a couch to pick up and bring in (most likely tomorrow at some point) and there will be more arranging and cleaning to follow afterwards.  It was also fun just to sit on Bri's bed and talk to her about everything.  It was the first time we really got to talk for any length of time.  The first couple of days we were always in different places and the boys were over helping us move in and I was gone for most of the day for the concert, so it was hard to find time to just sit down and talk for a bit.  I am so glad I get to live with her this summer!  I love her :)

Dinner run break.  Time to at least get something to drink, then back here to make something to eat :)  finish this in a bit!!

Ok, so its about two hours later.  I needed to get out of the house, I will elaborate on that one later.  But!  I went to dollar general because it is super close, and a lot more reasonable than going across town.  I was able to get everything on my list there!  haha.  Then I came back, put things away, and made dinner.. Ramen noodles cooked in the microwave and a 20oz Dr Pepper I picked up on my way out of Dollar General.  haha.. I didn't feel like cooking a big blown out meal tonight.  Besides, whats the point?  I'm all alone.

I guess I should get used to it.. or I should even be used to it by now.  I just don't particularly like being alone, I like spending time with people.  I also like spending time with David.  The last two and a half weeks I have gotten to spend a lot of time with him, then today he left.  He starts work at the Liberty Bank tomorrow so he had to head out of town.  I just really wish he didn't have to leave so soon.  Its not like he had a whole lot to do back at home, right? haha.  Oh well.  Bri and I hung out a little after he left.  Well first her and Travis went to an antique store and she bought this real cute elephant candle holder deal, ha.  Then she dropped him off and we hung out before she left for work.  Now I have been completely alone in the house all day.

Idk why, well ok I guess I do know why, but it was just so hard saying goodbye to David.  I wont see him for at least two weeks, and I know that other people don't see each other for much longer and/or are so much further apart from each other but idk, goodbyes suck in any form or fashion.  I honestly was fighting back tears during it, but I didn't want to make a scene.  I just didn't want it to happen so quickly.  But supposedly its easier that way... hmmm.  Ok so anyways, I came back in to see Travis and Bri being all cute as usual, haha.  And to be honest I am kind of glad they left soon after.  I then just sat and watched TV and started doing this whole blog thing again.  A little bit later Bri came back alone, before she left for work (as stated above).  It was nice not being alone, but soon enough I had the house to myself again.  Besides going to the store and eating I have since then been hanging out in the living room on my computer blogging, uploading pictures, and watching movies of course.  Total chick flicks such as A Walk to Remember, and Dirty Dancing.. and of course I have been watching the new episodes of Secret Life of the American Teenager, hahaha.  There was a two hour episode today!  It started while I was at the store so I recorded it, then I was able to fast forward through all of the commercials later!

Now Secret Life is over, and I am once again on the couch, finishing this up.  I had to take another break to go wash out my bowl, and to change into warmer clothes.  It started getting cold inside, haha.  I already had warm socks on, but now I switched from shorts to yoga pants and threw one of David's flannels over top my tshirt.  David growing out of his clothes is somewhat of a plus to my wardrobe, lol.  Besides, I just like wearing his stuff, especially when I am not with him; it makes me feel closer to him :)

But anyways, sorry for being mushy.  I jut figured if I am going to write about my life then I might as well be honest about everything I am feeling.  I would keep writing but I am getting tired already, maybe because I have been staring at the computer screen for hours.  Ugh.. I probably need to start packing for Georgia.  Even though I wont be able to leave until Wednesday now because I have work tomorrow.  I am dreading the trip.  I really do want to see my family, I promise!  I just don't want to drive the 8hr trip by myself, I also don't want to make the trip back a handful of days afterwards.  And then I will be starting school the next day after I get back.  Boo.. I have to be responsible again.  Welcome to the life of an adult! haha.

Party Time :)

My second day in the house was quite as productful.  After lunch David helped Rachel and me pick up our shelves/cabinet and my fridge and move it into the house.  After that we all just hung out for a bit before it was time to start getting ready to leave for Riverfest!  I was so excited to see Mike Posner especially, and to see Nelly.  I was so excited three weeks ago when David bought up the tickets.  I haven't been to many concerts but I love going.  On top of that I love Mike Posner.  After getting ready we headed over to Brent's house for dinner then Brent, Zach, McKenna, David and I headed to Little Rock for riverfest.

There were so many people there!  That being said it was amazing that we ended up getting right in the front for the Mike Posner concert.  It was so awesome!  I was able to get so many good pictures and videos!  At least I hope the pictures are good, I haven't seen them all on a computer yet, they may not be as clear when they're blown up.  But who cares, I got to see Mike Posner; and it was all thanks to my amazing boyfriend David Landon Robinson :)  He is the best!  I just had so much fun going to two concerts with him.  I am glad that I am able to spend time with someone who I can just have so much fun with.  He's so great.  But besides that :P  After Posner our group headed over to the other stage where Nelly was going to play.  There were so many freakin people, the place was packed!  There were also a lot of black people.. haha.  We all had to grab hands and hold on to each other to get through the crowd.  The Nelly concert was fun, but not near as fun as Mike.  We were lost in a crowd a football field away from the stage.  At the Mike Posner concert we were able to get right up front, I like him better and know the words to all his songs better, and you could actually understand what he was saying, you could tell he loved performing, and idk.  It was just amazing.  I want to go to another Mike Posner concert for sure :)

After the concerts we hung out around Little Rock for a bit then headed back to Searcy.  After getting back into town we all went our seperate ways.  After getting to the house Bri was already asleep (it was about 2am) so I tried to quietly shower and get ready for bed.  Once I got situated it was time to snuggle up in bed. I watched part of the second half of Pearl Harbor before turning it off and getting some sleep.

I just had such a great night with an amazing guy and great friends.  I've missed going out and having fun like that.  Spending time with people is fun!  And concerts are fun!  and Having a great boyfriend is fun! haha.

Stage before Mike Posner

Most of the group!

At the Nelly Concert.

Time to move in!

After eating an hour and a half later we were back!  We first stopped by Harding so I could pick up my books I ordered for nursing.  After I finished with that I headed over to where Bri and Rachel were living for intersession to receive the house key from Bri so I could move a few things in.  And for the first time I headed over to my new house with David to move things in!  We just unloaded everything from my jeep and then headed out to see if I could work for a bit.  At least I was hoping to work except that my desk had been cleared out and my folder with all my information was thrown away.  Sad day!  So instead we talked for a bit then headed out for dinner, followed by going to the movies to see The Hangover 2!  

I wish my house would have been able to stay in my own house but two other girls were still staying there, so I didn't even have a bed.  Instead I headed back to Bri and Rachel's house and spent the night there.  The next day I was able to go back to my house and low and behold the two other girls had moved out!  So i could finally start unpacking and moving things around.  So David came to help and we spent most of the day doing just that! :)  He was very helpful whenever I needed him.  He could have been more helpful if he wanted I feel like, but he opted to sit on the couch and watch tv while I did the dirty unpacking work.. men!  He did help me out with the heavy moving aspect, and If I ever had questions about anything or called for him he I don't think I ever stopped working and getting the house ready until 2am that night, then finally decided it was time to sleep, I was pooped!  But I just loved loved loved having my own place, FINALLY!

Our house!!

It goes much farther back than what you can see.

my room starting to come along :)

Still a bit messy, and not completely put up but it will get there!

Our kitchen :)

Our Vanity, haha.  Guess whose side is whose.

Living Room!

Semester leads to Summer.

Finals week last much too long, although I was finished by Wednesday night.  Those three days and nights didn't feel like they were ever going to end.  I spent so much time studying.  All the hard work did pay off however, so I guess I should be happy about that.  

By Thursday afternoon I had met with Bri and Tessa, Met David's aunt, said some goodbyes, moved everything out of my dorm, with David's help of course.  Having brunch with Tessa and Bri was so much fun, discussing with Tessa how everything with her house was going to work out.  It was just exciting thinking that Bri and I would have our own place for the summer.  Finally I will be living on my own.  Going to summer classes, working, paying the bills, ADULT LIFE! haha.. This is what I have always wanted right?  Minus the school part, but I want to be out in Four years.  Anything I can do to be a College Graduate/RN/BSN in two years will be done.  I need to finish school so I can have a real life.  This School thing is getting much too old!  

Ok, so before I get off track:  Thursday: After David and I finished packing up it was off to Russellville for the next couple of weeks before I could move into my new house.  Staying with his family was so great.  I honestly wasn't meaning to stay so long, but I really had no place else to go and It was nice being surrounded by family and being able to spend time with my man.  Although I didn't get to see him much; he worked 10-13 hour days so whenever he came home he was tired and I never wanted to bother him in any way so I let him relax.  It never left for a whole lot of time to talk or anything but it was still nice being able to be close to him.  

It was a little lonely being in the house all day, but I made due.  I read a couple books, I got a few things finished up for nursing school, laid out by the pool (it was still too cold to get in) and I did laundry.  I also helped out by putting dishes away from the dishwasher, watering plants and doing anything that was asked! haha.  It was just a nice little get away; I was able to relax before I had to get the ball rolling.

Two weeks later, last Friday I was packed up once again and ready to head back to Searcy town.  After waking up and getting ready I helped David clean and pack.  After leaving the house we stopped by the elementary school and talked to Tami, his mother, before heading over to Taco John's for lunch before heading out of town.  I was going to miss being taken care off, and having a home to stay in where a family was present and somewhere where I felt comfortable.  I was so grateful of how David's family welcomed me with open arms and let me stay for so long.  I loved my time there.  But now it was time to start my next chapter:

living on my own, in my own home.

Did this about on a daily basis, its too cold to get all the way in though!

We were on the way back from somewhere.. church? getting a movie?  I forget.

David and I had a bit of a competition.  This is me beating his high score :)