It is wayyyyyyy late,
and I need to be in bed
I am waking up and leaving in the morning
and I will be in Russellville!!
I get to see David :)
Then I am off to Cali,
flying on a jetplane
and in two weeks he gets to come see me :D
and I am so excited!!
Moral of the story:
I love David :)
Thats it all!!

Goodnight everyone!!
Or I suppose its actually morning :P

~Lauren~

Packing is SO overrated!

I don't want to do it! Several times I have gone into my room and started straitening things up just to come walking back out ten or fifteen minutes later.. needless to say I havent really gotten anywhere. And it all needs to be done by tomorrow night! FML. I can do it though, most everything is still pretty much packed up and in the closet.. I will take care of it all though. And then I get to travel to Russellville!! (Yes, that is seriously the name of the town, ironic I know!) I will spend a couple days there with the most wonderful family and my literally fantastic boyfriend :D and then I will be hopping on a plane and headed off to Cal-i-forn-i-a!! I am excited to get back and see the family and friends, and of course I am even more excited for David to come out a week and a half or so later!! BUT- before I get there and do all that, packing still needs to come first.. gross. I would ask Bri for help but she has been in Nashville for the past few days and will not be getting here until tomorrow night. Maybe she can help me after work that night, I am sure I will be up late! haha. When I packed up my dorm room I honestly didnt start until like the night before and then the day of while David was already taking my things and packing them in my Jeep. my bad! I am gracious for his help though :) even though I know I frustrated him just a little, hehe. Oh well, he still loves me!

So! to further procrastinate lets list everything I have done to procrastinate today:
-Sold two books and got a little over twenty bucks for them! (more than I got them for!)
-got gas with my twenty dollars
-got sonic to celebrate being done with school!!
-watched Definitely Maybe
-watched The Proposal
-looked at more wedding things! :D
-looked at more traveling things!!

On the note of wedding things. After speaking with my Momma and just thinking about it: first, It is normal to begin to think about the future and begin to plan for what will be. And next no matter when I will get married I think its at least smarter to start thinking about things like that now and gathering ideas to take off a bit of the stress when the time for real planing sets in! All I am saying is that nursing school is going to stress me the h--- out! (I couldnt think of a better way to say it, so please, excuse my french). Anyways, its also just fun and a good way to spend my time (and procrastinate as well! haha).

Anyways, I havent done much else to procrastinate today but I am sure I will find more things, like cook a good meal, that will take up time! Wish I wasnt cooking for just one *sad face*

Oh well, time to head off of here and do something, whatever that may be! Maybe it will be saying just one more thing- Its going to be sad leaving though.. I really liked having my own house to live in, I am going to be so sad to go back into the dorms. Its not that I actually mind living in the dorm except that the rules get a bit annoying sometimes, but especially being a nursing major sometimes you really do need to take yourself out of the crazyness. Some people say that living off campus will make you feel left out and disconnected, where that may be the case to a certain extent I think it would honestly keep me more sane. When you live in the dorm people are always coming to you and asking to go place, etc etc etc.. I had a hard enough time juggling friends and classes last semester and I wasnt even in the nursing program yet. I have no idea how I am going to juggle nursing and everything else and be able to make time for it all. Time management is going to be a big struggle this year. And to be frank living off campus may be taking a lot of time away from friends, but they can honestly be very distracting at times. And I feel so bad for saying that because I love my friends, but Its just too hard sometimes to say no to them when they are begging you in your dorm room to come hang out. It just sucks. Ugh.. ok what a foul note to leave on but I should probably really be getting off here..

Ok, on a lighter note though, before I leave I have decided to let everyone now that David said one day we can get a German Shepherd, which is going to be fantastic!! But not only that he said we could get a Husky too!! :D I just want to raise puppies with him.. haha. and then a little further down the line maybe raising something else when the time is right and etc etc etc.. hehe. Ok, I just want to be a mommy one day :D Not many people know this but I watch Baby shows on TLC like 24/7 hahaha.. I get my knowledge on! haha, wow ok!! Time to go, for the third time! Third times a charm?? haha, ok, LATE!

:) Lauren :)

White Dresses and Vintage Visions.

So, It may be due to living with someone who is engaged and has started to wedding plan for her wedding next summer, or it may be because I have just found the most amazing man I could have ever imagined I'd find :)

(Yes Dad, I'm "giddy in love," haha.)

Either way I have been on a gathering wedding ideas kick for the last two days. This did not work so well in my favor yesterday as I was supposed to be studying for the final I had today. (which may have now have been suffered through for nothing- frustrated! More on that later though..) But for about a total of five hours I was either looking through wedding pictures and blogs and picking out things I like orrrrr planning this amazing and secret trip that I want to go on the summer right after I graduate (Which may be in December/January now..... let the frustration set in!) But I cannot talk about that trip on here, its a secret! Even though I have already asked David for a little input. But to his un-knowledge (?) I have had something like this in mind for a while :D I just wanted to know what he thought about a trip after we graduate. So hopefully after he reads this he will forget all about it! :D haha jk.. I have all of a sudden been thinking that I wont be able to do all of this alone like I thought I would.. ugh. Oh well. Just as long as he knows that I have been thinking about him and this idea since the middle of the school year :)

SO! Back to the wedding stuff! I was never that little girl who dreamed up her future perfect wedding or had her barbie and ken doll marry each other. (They just lived together- whoops!) I just never gave it any thought, like a lot of other little girls my age did. Even as I grew up it wasn't something I really thought about, I just knew I always wanted to be married and have a family, and be a mom. I never thought about the wedding aspect of it. For all I have ever cared, up until recently, I could have just gone and eloped or married in a courthouse and never give it a lick of thought. (Although my parents would KILL me!) I think weddings have just always intimidated me.. because I am a perfectionist when it comes to the things I create. I dont create much needless to say. But when I do I want it to go how I want it to go and I dont want anything being messed up! I basically just don't like messing things up or doing something wrong is what it comes down to. Ask David, even with us, I just want everything to be perfect.. which it cant always be. Maybe being with him and realizing that not everything can be perfect kind of eased the idea that a wedding isn't necessarily going to go perfectly either.

Another thing! When people talk about weddings they are always these huge expensive extravagant things! Not saying that mine wont be, but not in the ways that many weddings are. I promise you I will have the cheapest wedding I can have and it will still look amazing. I just really like the look of some of the vintage wedding ideas I have. I have gathered some pictures off line that give me a bit of inspiration for whenever I will begin planning that day. I want it to be at a beautiful venue, but the decorations will be vintage-y, and simple, and most of them will be DIY. I have seen a few different weddings some being people I know from Harding, others being rando people I find online but their DIY's and vintage-ish themes were gorgeous. I just think its classy, and simply just pretty!! haha. But when the words simple, beautiful, vintage, not-going-to-completely-blow-the-back-pockets-off-all-my-jeans=perfection (in my mind)!

Anyways, needless to say I spent hours yesterday and didnt study as much as I probably should have for my test- leading me to get a C... but I am so over these summer classes. Ugh.. I want to think about happy things instead! And now I am completely done with my classes for the summer! And to celebrate I looked around a little more at wedding stuff! Then passed out on the couch for like three and a half hours.. which reminds me- I'm hungry. I think I will head off here and make some food. And then maybe look at wedding stuff again :D Idk why, but it is just so much fun! I love it, and its such a nice break from studying all summer. This all is just making me so excited to get married one day, to the man of my dreams :)

-A girl in love.

19 more days!!

19 more days and David will be with my in California! I am so excited, and I just wanted to let everyone know! haha. It is just going to be so much fun. Here is a list of some things I want to do:

Go to the beach- duh. We may go to Venice and Muscle beach the day he gets in just for the heck of it, but I also just want to go to Zuma beach for sure, in Malibu. I just like it there :) BUT there is a slight possibility that we may go surfing and that will be done a little north of Ventura.

Go to Six Flags! I just always have wanted to go to a theme park with a boyfriend. I just think it would be fun :) We will probably go with like my brother and sister as well, but we will see! :) I just know that we both love roller-coasters and all of that and he hasn't ever been to a huge theme park before so I am excited to take him!

Go hiking! There is this place called the punch bowls that we go to a lot and I just like going hiking, so I think it will be fun :) And we can jump into the punch bowls when we get to them if we want! Hopefully it wont be too cold.

Go to Yosemite- I hope this works out!! My family talked about going but then there might be a bit of conflict so we will see how things go. I just want him to see how beautiful it is and get to go since he has never been. We may go hiking there as well!

Go to La/Hollywood- we are probably doing all that the day he gets in. I just like walking around those areas, its just fun and there is a lot to see. Sight seeing is always exciting, right?? haha.

Go to the fair!! Our county fair will be going on again and I just want to go to the fair with him, haha. Also there will be a lot of good performers there this year including: The Beach Boys, Lifehouse, Three Days Grace, REO speedwagon, Pat Benetar.. just to name a few! So we have a lot of options there :)

So those are the main things I have thought of, I almost wish he would stay longer! hehe. But I am leaving with him when he leaves so it wont be bad at all. It was just kind of annoying because I had thought we werent leaving until tuesday when in reality we are leaving monday.. lame! haha. But all in all I am just so excited to have him come out and get to hang out in Cali and have fun!! :) Ahhh, cannot wait! I just love him so much :)

Last Week in Searcy for a Bit..

First of all, this summer has gone by so quickly. Like I really cannot believe that it is almost over! Granted we have about a month of summer left, but still! This week is my FINAL week of school for the summer, needless to say I am STOKED. But it is a bit bittersweet. I am happy school will be done and I will finally be able to relax, but it also means that I have to leave.. Don't get me wrong I am excited to see my friends and family out in Cali but I am going to miss living with Bri so much. This summer has been truely fantastic with her! I couldn't have asked for a better housemate. (Unless it was a husband.... hehe). I have just had so much fun living with her and everything worked out so well. I am also going to be sad being able to live in my own house, and not in a dorm or my parents house. Love my family to death but I don't really miss living at home. I especially do not miss living in the dorm!!

BUT! Most importantly I am going to miss the man of my dreams. [If you hate reading sappy stuff, just spare yourself and leave this page now!] I have been so grateful to live near him this summer. It has allowed us to see each other and visit each other frequently, and that it more than most couples get to do during the summer away from school. I was extremely grateful for his family and his parents in particular. They were so gracious enough to let me live with them for two weeks at the beginning of summer before I was able to move into my house. That really meant so much to me, and it was so great getting to know them on such a personal level. I love his family so much, they really mean the world to me. They have made me feel so included and loved. They didn't have to open up their home to me but they did, and I really can't say thank you enough. I have also been able to visit David several times this summer. We usually alternate weekends when I will visit him then he will come visit me. He has come here to see me more I believe but I have spent a handful of weekends with him. I just really like being able to have that family atmosphere and have that time to spend with him. I love just relaxing and talking to David so much. We don't always do that a whole lot, most the time we are watching tv or playing video games or I am studying, etc, etc. But when we really do just get to sit down and just talk about whatever, I love it so much. That was one thing that I really loved about him when we first met and started dating. He is just so easy to talk to (most of the time! hehe) Like the first day we had ever hung out we literally talked for eight hours straight! About what?? I really don't know.. but it happened! I think it is important to still make time and do that. Everyone gets so busy in their day and when they relax they want to just veg out in front of the TV or computer etc, me included! But sometimes it really is just great to sit in silence and just be with that person. And thats really one of my favorite things to do with David, and I sometimes wish we did it more! :) I have just been so busy a lot of the time, which I really hate. Pretty much all of every weekend we have spent together I have to study for a large chunk of time. I wish I would have been able to just spend that time more with him, but it has never really happened. That has been the only downfall to living on my own but still having to take classes.. the work. And its mostly just busy work, and studying of course. I just wish It wouldnt have kept me from spending more time with him.

Ok so recap over some of the things David and I have done this summer:
-Went to riverfest and saw Mike Posner! and Nelly! I have always wanted to do that, to go to a concert with friends or especially a boyfriend. It was just so much fun, and I hope we get to do it many more times :)
-Gone swimming in his marvelous pool. And I have watched him do cool trick shots with a basketball hoop (with backboard) he made.. and get to see him do all these amazing flips that I could never do and am too scared to try (I can barely even gather the courage to dive off of the diving board, and I still dont do it correctly!) I have tried making a certain shot though, that mark my words I will make one day soon!
-Made food together. One time at his house we attempted to make brownies, and they didnt cook long enough.. idk what happened to them. Another time we made breakfest for lunch at my house and needless to say I burnt my finger then smoked up the whole entire house! (This was the day before I burnt the crap out of my hand!) I really showed him my cooking skills that weekend. I think he is scared to ever live with me and have me cook for him lol.
-Gone to the mall! Ok so I really liked shopping with him. It was fun to pick things out and I had fun trying things on and modeling for him! hehe. I also just liked being able to walk around in public with him, and be a cute little couple together! :) He is just really good at shopping though. I know if it were my brother he would want to get out of the store or at least go do his own thing while my sister and I or my mom shopped. But David was really good, even when it was a store that only I could shop in! And he would tell me if he liked things or not (except one time when I was trying to decide between a light grey and a dark gray cardigan and he didnt care either way... haha. Thankfully some random girl told me which one she liked better, lol) But I just had a really fun time with him!
Gone to the movies!! Later that night when we went to the mall we went and saw Bad Teacher, funny movie! We were kind of bummed that the theater turned out to be just as bad as searcy's but the funniness of the movie made up for it! This summer we have also seen Transformers 3 (AMAZING!!! Made me want to chant USA for the rest of the night!) We saw Horrible Bosses, which was funny as well. And then this weekend we went and saw the final Harry Potter!! Oh my word it was great, so sad it is finally over though.. But I like going and seeing movies with him. And we like similar kinds of movies so it works out great! I also like being a typical couple and doing the whole holding hands occasionally kind of thing. We arent into the kissing during the movie though, we actually like to watch it, hehe. Maybe one day we will have to just go to a crappy movie and be THAT couple.. haha.

Ok, and one thing we have done that really not all couple do and something that I have really enjoyed was going to church together. First of all, it just really means so much to me that I have found someone who shares my faith. Used to I never thought I would find someone who really does believe all the things that I do as well. We view many things so similarly. It works out really well. But I especially have liked going to his church with him. Its been nice to really go to a church and feel like I belong again. That may be partially because he has always gone there. But I am starting to meet people and make new friends and acquaintances. Its just really nice.. Its the closest I have come to feeling like having a home church again since I have left home, and I really enjoy that. I like going to class and service, and singing, and praying, and just doing everything with him. This is a bit outside of church, but I really love praying with him as well. Like when it is just the two of us.. thats something we really havent done for a while, at least not out loud with one another. I pray for the both of us very frequently, but mostly just to myself. David is just the first guy that has ever prayed out loud both with and for me. I have never had anyone do that for me. It is truly so amazing to pray with someone like that. We havent done it as often as we did in the school year, but that may also be because we see each other more then, Im not sure. But I think I just decided to make sure we do that at least once every weekend when we see eachother this summer. (Which there is only just a couple more weekends we will have like that before school starts!)

I am just curious to see how our relationship will change or differ when school starts. It has had a bit of a different vibe since we have been out of school. So I am just really interested to see what it will be like when school starts again and we see eachother every day and sit in chapel together! (Don't worry we wont be one of those couples! haha) And I believe I also enabled him today to make me work out every day during the school year, haha. Which I really need to, I really do honestly love to workout, and run and all of that but I just never make the time to. And I think I have come to a couple of conclusions: first, I have always needed someone to tell me what to do. I only ever worked out because of sports and going to practices. Since I have been on my own I dont really know what to do. I think I just really need someone to be like ok lets go and give me a bit of guidance. Which brings me to number two, I just dont know how to work out. I mean I know different things to do, but I dont know how to get my butt looking like it did two years ago or how to trim some tummy or side fat.. Idk how to do that! I think all in all me not knowing how to do all this keeps me from going to work out. Because I know running is not enough, but its mostly what I know how to do.. which is what I should have realized when have a conversation with David about this the other day.. Its not that I dont like doing it or dont care, but Idk what to do or how to get started.. I dont have the knowledge so therefore I just find something else to do instead and I dont make time to work out in any way.

So wow, I got carried away a bit there. But anyways: David, when you read this, I am appointing you as my new physical trainer! haha. (idk what I just got myself into, lol) But back to the school year. it will just be so much different because we will be back in dorms and not able to hang out like we have been able to this summer. But I still think It will be good. I have liked being able to learn how to live on my own.. getting myself ready for life after college and married life!!! Yes I said married.. hehe. Not sure when exactly that will happen, but I know who it is going to be with. I mean at least I think I do! I know who I want to marry, he jst has to say yes.... wait.. isn't that supposed to go the other way around.. He is supposed to ask me right? lol. Idk, David and I have already begun talking about all of our future possibilities together and it just gets me so excited. I really do want to spend the rest of my life with him. I have come to know him and love him so much and I have come to know his family and background.. Ahhh I just love him :) And for the most part I really do think we work so perfectly with each other. I am just so excited to see how the rest of school goes together and just our lives together in general. He is truly amazing in every way.

And for a final exciting memo: He will be at my house in California in three weeks!! Three weeks from tomorrow to be exact! I have been looking forward for this for so long! He has already been able to meet my Mom in person which was just wonderful and he has met everyone else through skype, but I am just so excited about him being able to stay with me in California for a little over a week, it is really going to be so great! :) I have already planned out a few things I was to get to do, and I am just so excited!! haha. I will be leaving to go home either this following weekend or sometime during the next week and just a week and a half to two weeks late he gets to join me!! I just know it will be fantastic :) Ahhhh!! haha, ok, I will calm down now. I just cannot believe it is almost here. I cant wait for him to get to meet my whole family in person and for them to just love him! :D

Ok, so I really would love to talk more but I just realized it is after ten and I have been writing this without stopping for like the past 45minutes, haha. Why isnt it this easy to write essays for school!? GEEZE! Maybe because I just love writing and talking about stuff that matters :) David, and life.. school stuff is dumb, haha. But I am almost done!! And then in a month Nursing School from hell hits me.. haha, jk. It will be great but I officially wont have a life anymore.. bleh. ok But I need to finish stuff for my nursing class that is due tomorrow, haha. Over and Out!

<3 Lauren :)

Life is good.

Ok so I figured out how to update my blog from my phone! Legit! David will be so happy :) ok so I know I have sucked keeping up with this thing but here is a quick recap!

My eyes got corneal infiltrates they were super sensitive to everything, my left one swelled up. Spent over a hundred dollars on the doctor/medicine, long story short it blows.. I am still recovering, and this started over two weeks ago. I have been wearing old glasses that I can't see out of since then.. And something is causing me to have blurred vision in my left eye... Last doctor appt is tomorrow.. Hopefully it's the last anyway!

Next subject matter.... I passed pathophysiology!!! With a c.. But oh well. It's been really tough taking these nursing classes this summer. A lot tougher than thought.. Which leads me to the fact that I have literally been unable to work for lack of time and thus I am literally completely broke with next months bills coming up in a few weeks.... Shoot me. Or just donate to my cause!!!

My other class has been going really well.. for the most part at least.. This week is gonna be a killer though.. Like seriously it's going to blow! Ugh... Three clinicals and two of them are back to back... That night with all that post and Orr clinical paperwork is going to kill me.. It's going to take forever and then I still have to get up and be at clinical by 630 in the morning.... Gross!!

But on the brighter side, I was able to spend the last TWO weekends with David :) :). Can I just say first that he makes me sooo happy. Last weekend we were able just to chill, and spend time together.. And one day we went to little rock and went shopping and to a movie, and idk It was just so much fun getting to do all that with him.. And to be able to show the world that we are together and happy, and that I love him so much. We also had a few interesting cooking experiences that weekend. Made breakfast for lunch together and I managed to smoke up the kitchen and burn my finger... The next day or the day after I was making fried chicken and got a nice burn on the top of my hand... Ouch!! David kissed my boo-boo's and made them feel better though :) I was sad we weren't able to go to his families for the fourth, but I had a lot of work to do and it would have also required me to drive there and back that day which there was no way I could really do that with my eyes being all screwed up :/ I just wish I hadn't had kept him from his family and that we could have had a better fourth of July and I would t have burned myself.. But what I care about most was just that I got to spend it with him.. No matter what we did we were together.

This weekend was so nice to get away.. I really needed to get out of this town and I just wanted to see David again as well. The drive really isn't too bad. But it's definitely worth the drive either way. He took me to see both, transformers 3 and horrible bosses. They were both really good! But transformers was so seriously legit in every way.. I told David during the movie at one point that it made me just want to chant USA.. haha. If you havent seen it yet, go do so!! Other than that we got to relax and go swimming!! Saturday Davids family had a yard sale so I helped a teeny tiny itty bitty bit with that.. Ha. I kinda felt bad for not really being involved :/ but their sale went good and they are having another one in september! Swimming was a lot of fun even though my burn on my hand busted open.. But it is healing quite nicely (it was a pretty good second degree burn!) I really like watching David do all his legit flips though.. I wish I could do then but I'm a bit scared to try haha.. But I got a tan!! David tried to say he is darker than me, but really I am darker, or at least catching back up now.. Haha. I finally agreed with him that we are just different colors :P

Do anyways everything had been going really good. And I really enjoyed my weekend, and I really don't want to get up in the morning at 530 and I also really just want to be with David again instead... I really do love that boy, with all of my heart. He makes me so incredibly happy. And in just a few weeks he will be going out to Cali with me!!! I cannot wait!!! :D

But I need to get off here and get some sleep.. Goodnight everyone!

What a stressful week!

Where to even begin. The week started out pretty good! Sunday Bri and I went shopping, so that is always a good way to feel good, (until looking at the receipts afterward!) We did a bit of damage but I didnt feel too bad about it since I had a ton of more money in my account!

Anyways, I was trying my hardest to get adequate sleep and I had most of my homework done before the week had even started. Monday I started out with class from 8am-3pm. The usual. I then stayed after and went to the library and worked on homework until the nursing lab opened up at 4pm. I stayed in there until almost 6pm, then headed home to finish up my take home test and study for the last validation I had the next day!

So Tuesday rolls around and I passed my validation with no problem, Then I had class, but for once didnt have to go to the lab afterwards since validations were over! So then I went home, relaxed for awhile and started studying for the test I had the next day in my Pathophysiolgy class.


Ok, I know I havent gotten this far yet but I cant see really well due to something else that happened.. and my eyes are being really weird so i need to get off here. Finish this soon!!

David comes tonight, so excited to see him!!! :)